| Location | Basingstoke |
| Age | 4 days |
| Cause of Death | Cystic Fibrosis |
| Date of Birth | 01/12/2007 |
| Date of Death | 05/12/2007 |
| Visitors | 3,860 since 13/11/2008 |
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After 8 and a half months of a happy 'normal' pregnancy, I spent the 30th of November 2007 worried
because Keelan had not moved once. He was an extremely active baby, he would kick all the time
except when family members wanted to feel him. I didn't look pregnant until about 2 weeks before
this as the weight just appeared. (I'd been healthy and eating properly)
I had an appointment with my doctor in the afternoon and attended as normal, it was here that I was
advised to go to the hospital as they could find no heartbeat and when they eventually did it was
really faint. They said the lack of movement was normal as he would be sleeping. This was not right
as he moved from the minute I woke up to the minute I went to bed.
I was admitted to hospital at 3pm and was transferred to a delivery suite at midnight. Throughout
the time I was in the hospital I was attached to machines monitoring Keelan's heartbeat or rather
lack of. He still hadn't moved but the midwives didn't seem concerned. They just kept telling me he
was sleeping. My labour was going really well (although slow), I wasn't in any pain until lunch time
on the 1st of december. At this point I was given gas and air which helped. Keelan still hadn't made
much movement, although he was in the correct position.
It seemed to go down hill from there though. I was then given 2 epidurals (the first fell out) and
then an injection of pethidine. Nothing was working. By 5pm on the 1st Keelan's head and shoulders
had been delivered and a midwife was telling me she thought he'd arrive in the next 5 minutes. At
5.25pm I was transferred to theatre where Keelan was delivered by C-section.
He wasn't breathing and had major problems with his abdomen. The doctors said that he'd already
grown his wings and they wouldn't be giving him oxygen. At this point he took the tiniest breath and
so they proceeded with giving him some help. In the early hours of December 2nd, Keelan was
transferred to Great Ormond Street Hospital.
At Great Ormond Street Keelan was given various tests and operations in the 3 days that he was
there. He grew his little wings on the 5th of December, after I made the heart breaking decision to
turn off his life support.
I made this decision because I was told that as a result of his large abdominal mass most of his
internal organs were under developed and currently failing. Due to a lack of oxygen during my labour
he was severely brain damaged.
I was told that even if his heart and the other organs started to function he would have no quality
of life. He would not be able to talk, walk, control any bodily functions. He wouldn't even see that
I was his mummy. I was also told he may die within hours or days and that he could go when I wasn't
around to see him.
It killed me to lose him after wanting him more than anything else in the world.
Keelan was kept a secret from most of our family until 4 weeks before his birth. This wasn't
intentional it just kind of happened. Although kept a secret from alot of people his arrival was
eagerly awaited.
He leaves behind his Mummy, Nana, Grandad and Uncle Paul, also a very large extended family.
He sits in the clouds with all his Angel friends dropping feathers from his special wings.
Loving him always and forever till its my time to fly,
Mummy xxxxxxxxxxx
Hello Angel,
Sorry I didn't come and see you yesterday, but I've been feeling a bit upset and didn't want you to see me crying again. Its getting so hard being here without you, I don't know what to say to people or what to do.
Bobby slept in mummies room yesterday and when he fell asleep it reminded me of when I was pregnant with you and how he'd curl up next to you and purr as you both slept. He would have looked after you if you'd be able to stay with me.
Love you always,
Mummy xxxxxxxxxxxx
A Mother's Love
The love that we feel
From the moment we know
A life's starting inside us
Continues to grow
Every butterfly kick
And wriggle in our tummy
Bonds us further still
As we become a mummy
We'd sit down sometimes
Our bump in our hands
Sharing delicate moments
And imagining plans
Then one day our world stopped
Our love mixed with pain
Apart from our baby
Our lives felt in vain
Our love will continue
Til we draw our last breath
A mother's love is stronger
Than the shadow of death
In tribute to our babies
We will build and make plans
Our hearts go on loving
But we'll never understand
Hello Mummies little Angel,
Hope your ok, Mummy misses you alot. Especially as I'm making lots of cards for all the Angel Mummies at SANDS.
Have got lots of ideas of things to do for your first birthday in a few weeks. I hope you like them and that you and your Angel friends will have a great time.
Lots of love Keelan
Always and forever
Mummy xxxxxxxxxxx
"Angel"
Tear drops, slow and steady,
The pain so real and true,
God took another angel,
And that angel, dear, was you.
Angel wings, upon the clouds,
Your body softly sleeps,
Hush now little angel,
No more tears you have to weep.
Little prayers,are sent to you,
The short life you led;
Your family will never forget you,
So rest your little head.
I know God will look after you,
Now you are truly alive,
Your spirit soars beyond the moon,
Your legacy will survive.
You’re beautiful, you’re endless,
Now stretch your wings and fly,
Your loved by so many,
It will never be goodbye.
Close your pretty eyes,
No more tears,just go and rest,
Let your soul lie peacefully,
we know you did your best.
A poem written by mellanie campbell
for all the GTS little angels x
my prays are with and although my baby is still here she has cf and was in icu for 4 months and know how difficult it was for me but i cant imagine your pain xx sleep tight sweet boy good night xx
So very sorry for your loss, from someone who cares xxx
Fluffy clouds of pink and blue
Where fairytales and dreams come true
Where teddy bears put on shows
In the place where little babies go.
Where a choir of angels sing on high
A peaceful, soothing lullaby
And their feathers flutter down like snow
In the place where little babies go.
Where the sun is shining everyday
In a heavenly sky that’s never grey
Where love will bloom and always grow
In the place where little babies go.
Where bells will ring and hearts they soar
When a mum and dad walk through its door
Then only tears of joy will flow
In the place where little babies go.
Sending my love to you and your loved ones you have sadly left behind xxx
Tear drops, slow and steady,
The pain so real and true,
God took another angel,
And that angel, dear, was you.
Angel wings, upon the clouds,
Your body softly sleeps,
Hush now little angel,
No more tears you have to weep.
Little prayers,are sent to you,
The short life you led;
Your family will never forget you,
So rest your little head.
I know God will look after you,
Now you are truly alive,
Your spirit soars beyond the moon,
Your legacy will survive.
You’re beautiful, you’re endless,
Now stretch your wings and fly,
Your loved by so many,
It will never be goodbye.
Close your pretty eyes,
No more tears,just go and rest,
Let your soul lie peacefully,
we know you did your best.
sister of Laurence Thomson
xxxxxXXxxxxx
FLY HIGH SWEET ANGEL FLY
I don't know you darling, or your Mummy, but I see your angel feathers all around.
I am so sorry your Mummy has to wait to be with you, but I am so sure you are with her, and cuddle up to her every night.
Love and hugs
Mel x
Hello little man,
Have you seen all your beautiful candles and lovely tributes? Mummy never thought that this many people would be so kind to stop and say hello to her little boy.
Nana sends you lost of love and thank you for her feather at work. xxx
Grandad and Uncle Paul, don't say much about you but I know they love you lots. xx
Are all your Nana's and Grandad's taking good care of you? Aunty Aud says she dreams of you playing trains with Grandad David and her little Angel Kim.
Wish you were still here with me as I miss you so so much and writing on here doesn't feel enough.
Loving you always
Mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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